misery

first of all..HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY to all my friends out there.. i really cheerish lasting friendship..i do.. and treasure all the memories that we have shared,along the rocky road each of us hav been tru. i know as we all r heading different ways, we seldom hav time to show how much we missed each otha, how much we really wanted to see each otha.. actually its not that we r lack of time..but actually..urm,how to say.. we made some new friends..yah, new friends to entertain n hangout wif.. dont lie,sometimes we forget our friends back in school.. but when the time comes.. feel tuh datang balik..like now.. a friend of mine is organizing a reunion.. i really feel that i wanna go..but in the same time.. i dont think that im ready to face them all... i dont think i have a face to show them.. my life hav been really sux especialy around this few weeks...

problem..everybody got their own problem.. whut differs is how we manage it.no matter how big or small.. the way you handle it that matters.. i know, its easy for me to say..i also failed in handling mine..im now so lost that i dont know whuts the idea of suddenly going to the computer lab and updating my blog..where im suppose to be back at my room resting.. i really am not well.. i can sum it all up with the statement "i lost 4 kg in one week".. i lost my appetite.. and now im losing my guts as well as my will.... i just dont know who can i trust.. utk tolong dba.. who will not hesitate to lend me an ear everytime i need a listener,who give me the stare thats inspire me to be stronger..who doesnt complaint why im crying so hard that i should have try to overcome this problem harder... im talking rubbish am i???????? i lost myself..whut shud i do..... =(