bisa rasa..........

adakah sendu itu sayu

adakah kuyu itu layu

adakah batu itu kaku

adakah itu ini perlu

siapa dia hakim?

laksana menentu qada'ku menggubal qadarku

merangkulku dan menghunusku

menobatku ratu, sahaya juga aku

ahhhh! ludahkan saja biar sakit

telankan saja biar perit

meskipun waktu membahagi jauh

mengapa jasad terdorong patuh

pabila keraguan kian utuh

mewajib jiwaku jatuh

emosi tidak terasuh

lantas rapuh

makhluk beridentiti manusia

hiduplah atas paksi usia

fikirlah bawah yang dicita

jangan yang digenggam bolos

yang digapai itu kabus

heAven on eArth !!!!!!

crazyly beautiful + amazingly fabulous = ^reDang^

so swimmers, diVe iN~~~ >>> (",)

nanananana__ganu kiter~!

pulau redang here i come... hehehe.. thats the destination i finally decided to 'cuti2 malaysia' this semester.. so starting tomorrow..dah jadik gadis pulau arr.. balik tanned... cehHH~ hahahaha... mengarut je dBa nih... bubuiii...wish me lotsa fun..

tp sdey sket sbb i didnt manage to bring my closest friends along due to some unavoidable reasons.. pity huh~

hell-messed gurl *tingtong****

looking back to whut i've done to some ppl, they dont deserve to be treated as such.its not like i keep on buggin them wif my probs (eh, ye jugak), but somehow i just havta depent or rely to somebody.. and eventualy, it is them who i most preferred. i tried hard not to burden ppl, i rather to be burdened (honest!) but no matter what i do, whut i did, whut i plan to do... the result always goes the other way around.. sick!! knape la nasib aku slalu *kiok*... plus my physical illness n mental disorder= just great~ ehm,recently i hav a few misunderstandings..

wif somebody, actually we understand each other (i think..) but the problem is.. we didnt confront our prob.i dont even notice that we have a prob until (",) mentioned it to someone who luckily told me bout it.. i never consider (",) a problem or a burden to me..but (",) thinks so..but i do think that i am a burden to (",) and selalu menyusahkan dia.. so both of us like blaming ourselv for menyusahkan the other party, and think that the best solution is to take a step back from each other, so that it brings to "aku taknak nyusahkan ko dah"...maybe we prefer it to be kept and settle sendiirik2...which i agree is ssoooooo not the best way.. (as if i hav other options ek?) pk2 balik macam bangang je... a friend of mine slalu cakap..dia nak lagakan je kepala aku ngan (",) so that dua2 bleh think straight again.. (i think u shud fren,hihi) ... but things happened and i dunno how to turn it back to normal.. so whut i wud do now (the least i can do) is hoping and praying.. (",) for the very best ... i dont mean to hurt (",) ..it hurts me to hurt (",)...

misery

first of all..HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY to all my friends out there.. i really cheerish lasting friendship..i do.. and treasure all the memories that we have shared,along the rocky road each of us hav been tru. i know as we all r heading different ways, we seldom hav time to show how much we missed each otha, how much we really wanted to see each otha.. actually its not that we r lack of time..but actually..urm,how to say.. we made some new friends..yah, new friends to entertain n hangout wif.. dont lie,sometimes we forget our friends back in school.. but when the time comes.. feel tuh datang balik..like now.. a friend of mine is organizing a reunion.. i really feel that i wanna go..but in the same time.. i dont think that im ready to face them all... i dont think i have a face to show them.. my life hav been really sux especialy around this few weeks...

problem..everybody got their own problem.. whut differs is how we manage it.no matter how big or small.. the way you handle it that matters.. i know, its easy for me to say..i also failed in handling mine..im now so lost that i dont know whuts the idea of suddenly going to the computer lab and updating my blog..where im suppose to be back at my room resting.. i really am not well.. i can sum it all up with the statement "i lost 4 kg in one week".. i lost my appetite.. and now im losing my guts as well as my will.... i just dont know who can i trust.. utk tolong dba.. who will not hesitate to lend me an ear everytime i need a listener,who give me the stare thats inspire me to be stronger..who doesnt complaint why im crying so hard that i should have try to overcome this problem harder... im talking rubbish am i???????? i lost myself..whut shud i do..... =(